Current mood:	apathetic
Current music:	Ozzy and Kelly Osbourne - Changes
Entry tags:	relationship, school, work

Random Thoughts
I'm still looking for a new job. I decided that I would keep working at Natural Organics until I find a new job. Hopefully I will find something like a receptionist position. I need something that won't be too hard but will require me to actually use my brain. Currently, the mail room has me going insane. It's a very easy job but it takes absolutely no brain power. I feel that by the end of the day I have actually lost brain cells.

School is something I an thinking a lot about. I'm only taking one online class this semester which makes me feel like I'm not going anywhere. I find it so hard to actually sit down and do my homework. I need more motivation. I know what you're thinking, "The fact that you can get a great job by going to school should be motivation enough!" I know I know. I just hate school. If I had it my way I would give all the money I have for school to Bobby so he could go. I know he wants to. It would be better used by someone who would actually be happy to do it. I'm only there because my grandpa and my parents would disown me. Not to mention Bobby would be disappointed.

To be honest, I don't think I can do it. I don't think I can actually finish school. I'm not smart enough for this stuff. I'm a hands on person, I've never done great in school. I've always skated by. No one believes me when I say that because I got good grades, honestly I have no idea how I did that. It was a fluke, I swear! I never once remember studying or doing homework. I lucked out and had the easy teachers and classes. :-/

*sigh* It's my first Valentines Day. My first REAL one. I've never had someone who actually cared about me on this holiday. I have a few ideas on what I'm going to do for Bobby but I don't know everything yet. Suggestions would be appreciated.

Bah. I'm gonna go procrastinate some more.