I'm okay now. I was venting as you may be able to tell. There was a stupid incident that happened between Bobby and I but we're okay, we really are. It shouldn't have been just a big deal. It's all good.

Anyway, continuing on, I have a new job. I star Monday. I'll be working in an office for Pirk Management which is a waste management company. They pretty much handle all the paper work and whatnot for companies that have to dispose of toxic chemicals, like gas stations and paint places. Basically what I'll be doing is document entry and anything else the engenierr wants me to do. I'm the assistant to the chief engenierr. I'm excited, it's the highest paying job I've ever had plus I get paid holidays! Woot! Gettin paid to sleep in! YAY!

Tonight, I'm going to a concert with Amanda. Blackhawk, Little Texas, and some other random country band I don't remember. I looooove country moosic lol. I just need to find a cowboy hat to wear!

Oh, and for those of you who I play WoW with, I won't be playing for a bit cuz my account expired and I don't have monies to renew it till I get paid so it'll be at least two weeks before you see me on as Delli again, I might just chill on Syl's account a bit! :-D

I've been crying off and on all day long. I know we talked it out but I'm still not okay. I don't know why it bothered me so much and I don't know why I can't just get over it. It IS a big deal to me. I feel like it's all my fault. I feel like there is something wrong with me. How am I supposed to believe that it's not about me?! It is about me weather you admit it or not. It was made about me. There are STILL things that bother me.

My heart hurts. I know it's stupid. God, I know! I feel like a fucking idiot. I feel betrayed, I know it wasn't betrayal but it feels like it. I know I've done wrong, and I know I've caused pain. That's why I should just move on and get over it and let us be happy. I love you more then life itself. I just want us to both be happy.

Okay so I have decided that I am going to do a 10 day detox. Why? Well, number one, my friend Bernard did it (although he did a 30 but I'm gonna start with just 10) He lost 30lbs. Now I know that I won't lose that much weight and what weight I do lose will come back very quickly but I figure that this will be a good start for me to begin to eat healthier and work out and whatnot. Bobby's first reaction was, "You're not gonna eat for ten days?!?!" As was mine. I know it's going to be hell but I think I can do it. Many people think that its terribly bad for you but there is plenty of research to show that if you do it right, a detox can be quite healthy for your body. Click Here if you want more infomation about what I'm planning. I will hopefully begin tomorrow and keep everyone informed. Wish me luck!